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[21 Sep 2004|12:52pm] |
So I'm thinking I need a New Livejournal, because I realized some things today and well I'm just sick of looking at these old entries and stuff.
Plus that stupid imposter is annoying.
So if you want to know the new lj name ask me.
<3
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[15 Sep 2004|09:29pm] |
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I'm done with feeling like shit everyday. and I'm done with wasting my time/effort when it just makes me feel more shitty.
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[13 Sep 2004|01:44pm] |
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anyways. im in love with my ipod that i got for my birthday. My birthday isnt till tomorrow but i have school tomorrow and other shit after school. i hate school. i hate band. i probably hate you.
but i love jenn.
seriously. she leaves me cute ass messages on my phone and brings me dinosaur cheese and she got my cake decorated hahaa.
ugh i need to take my car in for an oil change but im too lazy.
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[08 Sep 2004|02:22pm] |
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Its not a change of taste
I was the one there last night
When I needed you most
When I needed a friend
You let me down now
Like I let you down then
so i have been thinking a lot, but nothing really makes any sense. Lately i have not been able to say what i feel without having to feel horrible about something else. It's way to complicated to explain. I'll feel bad about something and than feel bad about feeling bad because its like I get blamed for expressing my feelings and get told that all I am is drama or the ol' "oh god what the hell is wrong now" maybe im just complaing about pointless confusing shit. i just cant help but feel upset about something like that. I know you have said the exact same thing to me as I am saying now.It's funny how the human mind works, sometimes i really hate it. the people who i want to read this probably wont, they might just skim through it and just see past it.
I remember in one point of my life I bottled everything up untill chris taught me it was okay to show emotion but now its like everything i learned has been changed and put into a different perspective. I feel as if in the past 4 months or so I have gone through many phases but now I feel more stable like I understand myself much more better. I guess things just came to early before I was ready for this. I know I am ready for many things now but could it be to late?
ugh.
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[04 Sep 2004|05:22pm] |
a best-friend is when you have someone who is more upset about something than you were when you should be way hurt. and who looks out for you and loves you.
a best-friend is Jenn.
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[03 Sep 2004|03:51pm] |
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hjilghjklh;hlhkdsfdsfdsfsflyhphy.
ew.
cant get the image out of my head.
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[02 Sep 2004|03:45pm] |
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The first day that I met you there I never thought you'd really care About me
So now that I'm the old one You said you see a new one Instead of me
So long, I finally figured out what was wrong
So let me dry your eyes
I'll say things you've never heard before You know that I will try
LJ drama is fucking dumb.
Drama in general is fucking dumb haha. Harassing me over the internet is like the totally new cool thing to do. People need lives AND need to mind there OWN business.
In other news:
I'm lonely. I want someone to open doors for me, hold my hand, and tell me everything will be okay. I want to be put to sleep by my hair being stroked and wake up with a kiss on the cheek. I want to feel important again and I want to talk about pointless shit with someone till we fall asleep.
that is all I ask for! I dont want cars or cash or anythingggggg i promise! I'm easy to please. I'll drive up to 50 miles to come see you and and i'll buy you stuff. come on <3 haha
any takers?
♥Sammie-marie
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[01 Sep 2004|08:55pm] |
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today Im actually happy.
It's nice being a senior and getting out of school at 11:48 :]
I saw kirk today and I slept in his bed untill he jumped on me and woke me up, THAN we went to taco bell, and i realized they put onions in the bean burritos. eww.
Kirk is always horny when I'm around... wtf!?
uhm anyways.
School is really fucking boring. And well yeah.
<3
♥Sammie-marie
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[31 Aug 2004|03:34pm] |
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my stomach is fucking churning.
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[29 Aug 2004|01:53am] |
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Who am I if i'm alone?
I hardly exist at all.
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[27 Aug 2004|04:26pm] |
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Now that I feel like the scum of the earth and have been for a while;I'm done.
I am not putting up with this bullshit anymore, i have had enough.
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[24 Aug 2004|10:24pm] |
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So I have been pretty busy the past week and a half. I'm tired. I don't have to wake up early tomorrow thank goodness :]. Things are changing; I'm changing; People are changing. It's weird but I like it ... so far. I'm actually starting to get excited about the new school year. I want to see how people have changed, and how they think. It's weird how things can change in the period of three months. Im going to have to focus on school a lot more this year since it's my last year and I actually want to get my life in order and go to a decent college. I'm feeling pretty good today, I've been getting a lot of ego boosters. I think im going to go out soon.
Talk to you later <3<3
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[22 Aug 2004|11:33pm] |
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I can't take this, it's the same every night.
I stay up and wait....
for nothing.
and i have been trying so hard.
oh well, I'll give what I get.
In other news, school starts soon. I don't know how I feel about it yet.
I've only really had a few things on my mind lately; maybe school will be good for me. I miss some friends whom i never get to see much anymore. Sometimes I would just rather stay at home and relax. I use to give anything to go out and now its not even a huge problem if I can't. I'ts not that I dont like hanging out with my friends, it's just sometimes I don't feel like hanging out in large groups or doing real eventful things. I'm just a little worn out with things, I guess? Watching a movie and going out for a bite to eat with a good friend just seems more appealing.
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[21 Aug 2004|06:22pm] |
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I'm coming over but it never was enough
I thought it through and my worst brings out the best in you
I've got a bad feeling about this
To hell with you and all your friends....
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[19 Aug 2004|07:21am] |
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For whatever reason I am feeling pretty shitty. I'm not sure exactly why. I hate this time of year; this is when I am most insecure. I don't want to bitch. Im sure none of you really want to hear it. We hear people bitching everyday, right? So why add the list. Oh great, im bitching about bitching.
I'm done.
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